Things I can't stand about myself...

I hate how insecure I am.

I hate how I have doubts.

I hate how I worry.

I hate how unconfident I am.

I hate how I don't see my worth.

and most of all...I hate how I don't see how much I diserve him.

I get so scared about him just running away because I don't see why he would like me.
He tells me I'm beautiful, he tells me I've got a great personality, he tells me he's head over heels for me...And I still have doubts and I don't want to tell him this because I don't want him to run.

You have no idea how much I really don't want him to run away...
I want this to last and I be with him and I'm just so afraid he's going to realize how I'm not that amazing and just leave...Not talk to me anymore...turn out to be a jerk like all the rest...

oh my god...
why?
Seriously.

This is stuff I could never tell him...I don't want him to think I'm some worry-wart and I don't want him to think I'm doubting things. I'm not doubting him and I'm not doubting this working out....I'm just worried is all....I wish I could just trust easier.

and of course, right when I am having all this stuff going through my mind...
He calls, talks to me for like two hours and then makes it better....

God I love him.
He's amazing. Really.

- Brandi <3