Sooo much stuff going on...

I seriously have so many emotions going on right now it's crazy.

I like him. A lot.
I'm so scared to rush things though...
I'm so scared to mess it up...

But honestly, more than anything I'm so scared to actually be falling for him...
He told me he loved me last night...I'm gonna be honest...I almost cried.
But, good tears...Because for once a guy told me he loved me and I believed him.
He's the only guy that's ever told me that where I believe him.

I swore I wasn't going to put too much effort into it, in fear of getting hurt...
Now I find myself wanting to make this work...Wanting to make it last.

So many people have shown doubts about us though...It's tough to hear it.
But no matter how many people have shown those doubts, I mean hell, Shaun said he doesn't think it'll last two months....I still believe it could last a long time.

It seems like a lot of people have little faith in us....
But you know what, I have faith in us....And I know he does too...
and I honestly hope things work out.

I know I didn't tell you "I love you"....
But don't for a second think I don't care about you...I do....A lot.
I've never felt this way about a guy before...

I hope it's real....and I hope it lasts....

Only time can tell...Right?

- Brandi <3