They said "I bet, they'll never make it"

Why is it when I find something that makes me incredibly happy everyone else has to shoot it down?

Why is it so much stuff seems like it's happening to try and keep us from talking and keep us apart?

It seems like the only people who have faith in this working is us...
And I'm gonna be honest, it's frustrating...Extremely.
It's frustrating to not have people support you when you're so happy and you really care about someone...And that seems like that's what's going on.

Someone said "I give it two months at the most"
No.

Someone said "It's too soon"
For your information, we're taking it slow.

Someone said "He's too old"
I'm not 14 anymore and he's keeping his hands to himself...My mom doesn't have a problem with it...so get over it.

Why the hell does everyone have to doubt us?
My own damn grandma thinks he's just gonna hit it and leave...
a lot of faith she has in us.

Why can't it be easy? Why can't I just be happy and it work out?
damn it.

I guess it's that whole "Love isn't easy" shit...

Son of a bitch...

No....It's not....It can't be love yet...
Could it?

Honestly...I have no fucking clue anymore.
I care about him, a lot. I care about him more than I've cared about a guy before...
I mean hell, even if it does seem soon I actually believe him when he tells me he loves me...
I've never really felt like I could believe a guy when he's said "I love you" to me...But for some reason, I believe him.

I talk to him about almost anything...I feel like I can.
I feel like I can trust him, like he's gonna be there for me...
I've never felt this comfortable with a guy before and I don't want everybody else and their frickin doubts to ruin it for us.

You know what....I love them, very much...
But fuck it.

I care about him and he cares about me...
I'm not gonna let everybody else try to ruin something I've been wanting for so long.
I'm not gonna let them chase him off, I'm not gonna let them bother me.
It doesn't matter whether they think it'll last two months or two years...
It just matters what we think, what we feel....

I honestly don't want to know how long it's gonna last...
I don't want to know what's gonna happen...
I'm tired of worrying about what might happen or not happen.
I want to just go for it and go with my gut and my heart which are both telling me this is gonna work out, and it's gonna last and they're both telling me "You care about him, don't let them convince you otherwise" and damn it, I'm gonna listen.

"First comes heavy breathing, staring at the cieling.
What will happen next? I don't wanna know."

- Brandi <3