I can't belive I ever doubted you, Mr. Garland.

I'm going to be honest. For the past couple of months, I kind of thought Travis Garland had turned into a bit of a sell out...well, actually ever since his American Idol performance I thought he wasn't the same guy he was when he was in NLT....Once again he proved me wrong.

I'd heard his remix of "Airplanes" by B.O.B but I had never read the story he shared in the description of the video....This is it:

"when i sat down to work on this record, i was reading some fan messages. one in particular caught my eye, from a girl named shakeitta. shakeitta has been a loyal fan for a few years now & i even got the chance to meet her and her sister on tour a couple of years back. i opened her message & was extremely upset to hear that she just lost her sister serita to cancer, at the age of 24.



i don't even think shakeitta herself thought the message would get to me, but it did and i was deeply moved by her story & her love for her big sister. serita was special, i could tell that from just one short encounter with her. some of the lyrics i wrote are inspired by her and by shakeitta. my prayers go out to her family... here's something that i hope serita would be proud of.


tg."

I read this while listening to the song and then I listened to the song again, and really listened to the lyrics.

I cried.

Travis Garland, I apologize for ever doubting your actions, intentions or integrity.
You really are still the amazing and talented guy you have always been.

Don't ever change. Please.

I have supported you since NLT and I will continue to do so.
You rock <3
- <3 B

My updated Bucket List :)

#1. Finish School (GED)
#2. Fall in love - Done
#3. Learn how to play the guitar
#4. Finish and record a song
#5. Have a place of my own
#6. Conquer my fear of falling (Sky diving or bungee jumping)
#7. Change someone's life for the better
#8. Donate blood
#9. Visit Austrailia
#10. Go on a roadtrip without a destination
#11. Watch a sunrise/sunset on a beach (preferably in California or Hawaii)
#12. Get married
#13. Have a job and be independant and able to support myself and eventually a family
#14. Get a college degree
#15. Make a big donation to charity
#16. Leave my mark on the world (in a good way)
#17. Have kids
#18. Get 1000 Voices up and running
#19. Sing in front of an audience
#20. Learn to love unconditionally - Done
#21. Get over my "stage fright"
#22. Sing karaoke
#23. Have an Alice In Wonderland themed tea party
#24. Get a car (and my license)
#25. Meet one (or more) of my idols (i.e. Hayley Williams, Loretta Lynn, Jose B.,)
#26. Meet the guys of The Buried Life
#27. Visit London
#28. Hear one of my songs on the radio (With me or someone else singing it)
#29. Learn how to play piano/keyboard
#30. Sing a duet with one of my favorite singers.

So yeah, I'm at 30 things now. Only accomplished two but working on the rest.
but, I wanted to update it and put all the new stuff on here =)
I will do all these things eventually!

Peace, Love and chicken grease,
- <3 B

Songs in which I have been abusing the play button on.

I've been checking out a lot of new music here lately...and this is pretty much a sum of my favorites.

"Just The Way You Are" - Bruno Mars
"Grenade" - Bruno Mars
"Count On Me" - Bruno Mars
"Who Is?" - Bruno Mars
"According To You" - Orianthi
"Shut Up and Kiss Me" - Orianthi
"Courage" - Orianthi Feat. Lacey (Of Flyleaf)
"Need You" - Travie McCoy
"Fuck You" - Cee-Lo Green
"Pretty Girl Rock" - Keri Hilson
"Dynamite" - Taio Cruz
"Whip My Hair" - Willow Smith
"Shake" - Jesse McCartney
"We R Who We R" - Ke$ha
"Too Close For Comfort" - McFly
"Raise Your Glass" - Pink
"I Won't Apologize" - Selena Gomez
"Blacklight" - One Call

I just want to make a quick note about a couple of these....
Bruno Mars = an amazing song writer. I love his lyrics!
Orianthi = I envy her guitar skills. She's an amazing artist.
Travie McCoy = Love Gym Class Heroes, so it's no surprise I love his solo stuff
Cee-Lo Green = This song is epic. Nuff said.
Keri Hilson = "Pretty Girl Rock" is amazing. It's a pretty woman empowering song =)
Willow Smith = This girl surprised me. I heard "Will Smith's daughter has a song." the first thing that popped in my head "Oh no, not another child star that won't be able to live up to their parents"....She proved me wrong. I'm obsessed with "Whip My hair" <3
McFly = I heard about them forever ago via NLT (Go figure, right?) and I rediscovered how amazing this song is a couple of weeks ago.
Selena Gomez = One of the few songs I like of hers
One Call = Really? haven't I said it a million times already? THEY ARE AMAZZZZZING!!! <3

So yeah, that's a pretty good update of my playlist right now....
Ohhhh other than christmas stuff but I'm just now starting with that.
There's a couple of awesome ones though =)

Oh well, keep rocking ;)
- <3 B

Wait....Who made what? and it's on iTunes?!?!?!

ONE CALL.
HAS A MUSIC VIDEO!!!!

This is behind times, I know....but I have been busy and neglected the boys for way too many months.
It is a song they wrote and produced (Go OC!!) and it is AMMMAAAZZZINNNGG!!!!
and before I go on to review it, I also have MORE amazing news about the guys.
They got signed! To JIVE records!!! That is HUGE. So proud of them and so glad things are going in the right direction for them....For once.
But, back to the video.

The song is called "Blacklight" it's very much so something you would dance to in the club, but it is very One Call.
The first line (sung by the still amazing, Jose B.) says; "Well shut out the house light and turn on the blacklight" the beats are amazing, the lyrics catchy. It's got successful single written all over it.

The video is based in a warehouse and has a lot of dancing it is.
My first impression/thought was "Damn, they might actually have a chance."
And I'm not saying they are better than all the other groups. But, let's face it...
NLT, Menudo, VFC (When there were with StoneHall) have always tried to "sugar coat" their music and actions.

They would direct it at a certian audience, I'm not sure if it was on purpose or not but I noticed it.
They wrote and recorded songs that would be appealing to girls aged 12-18. The typical boyband fan group. And I won't lie, One Call was doing it at first too. "Talk About Love", "Turn It Up", "Them Girls", "Symphony", "Talkin' Bout Us", while they are all amazing songs, they are all songs that would appeal to the same group. But this, this is different. "Blacklight" seems as if it would have an appeal to a variety of age groups and people. It's something most people would dance to when they went out to a club.
Personally, I wouldn't (I'm not) able to stand still when it's playing. I can't wait to get it on my iPod to listen to it all the time.

Which leads me to my next piece of info.
Both the song and video are on iTunes! Yes! Their first song on iTunes!!! How amazing is this?!?!?!
The song is $1.29
and the video is $1.99....
Go buy them both and support the guys...instead of downloading it off of YouTube/limewire/frostwire or whatever other illegal music source you choose to get your pirates music from =P

I knew it was only a matter of time.

- <3 B

Too many months between posts....

Okay, so....Yeah, a LOT has happened.

I'm single.
I cried...A lot.
But, I'm okay now and I don't hate him.

I'm out of school now and waiting for my final results to tell me if I passed and will get my GED.
I am now trying to figure out what I am going to do now.

I need to get my permit so I can learn how to drive.
I need to get my license.
I need to get a car.
and most importantly, I need to get a job.

I have no income, therefore cannot pay insurance, car payment, etc...

I have some goals I would really like to accomplish before the end of next year.
I want my license and a car.
I was a good job that I can pay my own bills with (Car insurance, car payment if needed, cellphone etc..)
and I would really like to have a place of my own.

That is one of my big goals in life, to have a place of my own.
and I am now working towards that.

I'm going to work on me for now...Getting my life together, improving my health, etc...
You know that whole self-improvement thing? Yeah, gonna try my hand at it again.
We'll see how it goes! :)

"No ocean's to wide and no mountain's too high"

"Cause together or not, our dance won't stop" <3

Okay, I knew when we first started out that this whole long distance thing was going to suck.

Now I'm really starting to realize it.
I miss you so bad.

I'm so worried I won't get to see you this weekend.
I haven't seen you in over a month.
I miss you.
I love you.

I need you...

I need to hold you in my arms again...
I need to kiss you and tell you I want to spend forever with you.

I feel so bad because I can't "do my part"...I rag you so badly about things being equal between us and I can't even get gas money to come and see you. I hate it.

I wish we didn't live so far apart.

Mom said earlier, "Love's hard isn't it? Makes you feel like none of it's worth it sometimes right?" I told her "No, it's all worth it" and it made me cry even harder.

I'm gonna be honest...I'm considaring moving closer to him.
Whenever possible.

You have no idea how hard it is to be away from him.

Feels like part of my heart is two hours away...

Please let things work out for next weekend...
I need to see him

"When this world makes you crazy and you've taken all you can bare"

"Just call me up, because you know I'll be there"

I just want to put this out there:
I have the most AMAZING friends...No.
Steven is more than a friend.
He's like a brother.

He told me tonight,
"You rock, you know that right?"
Me: "lol ok? I do?"
Him: "Yep."
"Always make me smile"
"good stuff"
Me: "Ummm...Ok lol"
Him: "lol"

Simple.
Most people would completely not understand why it meant so much.

Most recently...Actually, more so since last September
I've fully recognized how awesome of a brother Steven is.
He has helped me through the last 9 months more than he can ever realize.

I just can't thank him enough for being there for me.
He is an awesome brother and will always be...

- Me <3